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Jack the artist

Pretty pictures are everywhere
And more, there are ugly,
To jack
Surrendered of,
Truth that become lie, everyday a new one arrive, and adds on
Day by day
And jack never cares enough
And sometimes never cares less
But do nothing,
Always divine
To him
And he watches
His own show
At the moment in life
While very much alive.

everything is ok

7 months with her,

then she got pregnant,

and hated me,

which i never understand why,

lack of love

i thought,

is the only answer for me to forget her,

but

not easy,

and my friend jack,

who i went to same uni,

same class,

did art together,

and smoked..

is now going to be a dad

in couple of hours,

the woman i was with

without thinking,

without speaking,

without hearing,

listening to me,

made her mind,

and had an operation,

now I’m at jacks,

he is in the hospital,

I’m drinking,

and waiting for death,

as usual,

he is waiting for the new life

to arrive..

and as i write this,

i remember the days

when we use to tell each other,

“man, one day we both going to have kids,

and you are going to be uncle jack”

and we use to laugh and move on,

now its happening,

father jack,

with her baby daughter,

and i am, thinking of the woman,

and my baby,

that I’m never going to hold,

lets drink more wine.

One Day

there will be a woman one day
who will walk into your life suddenly
and she will sit in front of you,
and you will look at each other,
more than the words that will come out from your mouth,
she will listen,
you will listen to her,
and pay attention,
you will pay attention to everything about her,
she will be happy,
just a little,
then,
one day,
if you dont return back to your own shell,
she will be full,
of your reality
dont forget,
she is you,
but the opposite in a way,
dont forget,
she is not from here,
but from you.
just living in your life,
only when you are there,
and when you are not,
she is in her life,
doing her job
if you want to keep her,
i say, love
dive deep,
but
know to be a friends,
because she is not you.
you can only fight with yourself.

 

Ardic Agus 2014

Into 2014

  • sara

    are you there

    Sara

    baby

    im sure you will see this in the morning,

    if you are sleeping now,

    and im sure

    you are not starting work at 10 tomorrow

    or even maybe you are off,

    im not sure,

    i want to meet you

    at our cafe

    we gotta have to

    im sure you will wake up max around 11

    and i will be there around 12 waiting for you.

     i love you so much

  • more than anything else

    you are mine

    and you will be mine

    for ever

    and the forever is

    is the day when we both die

    god damn it,

    we been stupid

    both of us,

    you are mine, and im yours

    i will not give up on you

    how can i

    how can i be without you

    how can i be without your smell

    and your touch

    how can i survive

    without hearing your voice

    how can i stop

    when you are me and i am you

    how can this heart beat without your heart beating next to it

    our strength is our want

    and we both want

    wanting to carry on,

    with all our pain and happiness and laughter

    2014 is not much but just a new beginning into growing together

     

     

    Ardic Agus 2014

Question

what is it baby that you always wanted but couldn’t get it out of me,

why?

was i not enough to you?

what is enough ?

you dont even know,

like everything else,

so why go ?

without knowing,

so why sadness,

without wanting,

think about it,

think about the laughters

and the tears we had together,

always together,

always at the same time,

in that moment,

always with our hearts,

and some more,

and the touches,

and the way we both

hold and grabbed our faces,

while laughing,

looking into each others eyes,

and kissed,

for many times,

on and on,

for long.

 

Ardic Agus 2014

 

In my heart

many people visited my heart,

some stayed for few weeks

and some for few months,

some quickly went because they didn’t like it,

the last visitor of my heart, has locked her self in

accidentally,

without wanting to,

but she did,

and the doors of my heart will not open again,

forever,

and something from her will always stay in there,

until this heart gets old and becomes a clay again

then she will be free,

but she will never be able to forget her place,

this heart,

where she lived,

not for too long,

but alone.

 

Ardic Agus 2014

 

Beggars

Walking through the high street

seeing beggars every 100 yards,

some sitting and some standing off,

some begging food

and some are begging money,

from the people who has no money,

no hope,

and almost no life’s,

today one of them came up to me

and said “can you buy me a cup of tea sir”

I told him I didn’t had money and walked up,

then I stopped and looked back,

saw him going into his pocket and counting his change

it looked, he had more money than me.

Ardic Agus 2013

Confession

sometimes you are destroying yourself,

without realizing,

and sometimes you realize it,

and when you do,

its too late,

because of your habits,

your cycle of thoughts,

your mind,

becomes blind,

and it moves inside the darkness,

dragging you along,

and you see yourself and feel the pain,

and you can see your future as well,

your past tells

no good things,

but then you remember hope,

and hope brings,

light,

not much but it still

beats the darkness,

believe in yourself,

just believe,

and do it,

hit it hard,

hit it so hard,

without any fear.

look at the light,

look at it for hours,

for days,

until it becomes

more lighter,

control your mind,

control your mind to

control your mind.

© 2013 Ardic Agus