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everything is ok
7 months with her,
then she got pregnant,
and hated me,
which i never understand why,
lack of love
i thought,
is the only answer for me to forget her,
but
not easy,
and my friend jack,
who i went to same uni,
same class,
did art together,
and smoked..
is now going to be a dad
in couple of hours,
the woman i was with
without thinking,
without speaking,
without hearing,
listening to me,
made her mind,
and had an operation,
now I’m at jacks,
he is in the hospital,
I’m drinking,
and waiting for death,
as usual,
he is waiting for the new life
to arrive..
and as i write this,
i remember the days
when we use to tell each other,
“man, one day we both going to have kids,
and you are going to be uncle jack”
and we use to laugh and move on,
now its happening,
father jack,
with her baby daughter,
and i am, thinking of the woman,
and my baby,
that I’m never going to hold,
lets drink more wine.
Love in a mess
I am a mess,
and sometimes a dirt,
its not hard to tell once you are in my room,
you can see my mind here, and a personality
that maybe belongs to me, though im not sure yet
there is women here,
that turned into wine bottles,
some lying on the floor,
some are on the radiator,
under a yellow light,
sharing a space with
unfinished canvases,
dried paints,
and the smell of a spirit,
there is some love here,
and some pain,
but love is more stronger than the pain,
because of her,
her smell, on my pilow
and sometimes i see her hair,
on my bed,
and her form appears
from nowhere
alive
then goes again,
until she visits me
the next time.
Ardic Agus 2013
The night i was going to die
It was 12 o clock,
and i was drinking this cheap wine,
like an old plant needed a water
on an empty farm,
on its own,
I was sweating
and there was a pain on my chest,
I took one big sip,
and put the glass down,
to concentrate on the pain,
and it grew bigger
the more I concentrated on it,
the bigger i got,
I started to sweat a lot,
then i did something,
i went on her profile,
for no reason or what so ever,
and saw a photo of her,
wearing a dark claret red dress
and dark red lipstick,
it was one of her favorite colour,
she lost weight
i thought,
I looked at the photo
for 5 minutes or so,
then felt sick,
I wanted to focus on the pain again,
but it wasn’t there
what a bitch..
© 2013 Ardic Agus
The beautiful stranger
As she lie down on the sofa
she began to sink,
her form got smaller, and smaller
her hair hanging down,
and her lips are perfectly drawn,
and the silence
in the dark,
i put a cover on her,
and walked out the room,
to drink more wine
and as i drink more wine
i felt like crying,
i was deeply in love.
© 2013 Ardic Agus