In my heart

many people visited my heart,

some stayed for few weeks

and some for few months,

some quickly went because they didn’t like it,

the last visitor of my heart, has locked her self in

accidentally,

without wanting to,

but she did,

and the doors of my heart will not open again,

forever,

and something from her will always stay in there,

until this heart gets old and becomes a clay again

then she will be free,

but she will never be able to forget her place,

this heart,

where she lived,

not for too long,

but alone.

 

Ardic Agus 2014

 

please cry, 

let it come out, 

just like mine, for a long time now

feel it, feel the melodies of your tears, 

the movement of it, 

slowly going down

towards your cheeks, 

does it burn ?

does it make you cry more, 

more intensely? 

more salty ?

if not,

you are not feeling it enough 

let it crush your burns

let it turn your guts upside down

let it take your breath 

but don’t worry it wont kill you,

just enjoy the pain,

don’t ask, 

how can you enjoy the pain,

and just enjoy the pain

let it jump on you,

and take your breath 

and still have the smile 

up on your face..

you not gonna die.

The night i was going to die

It was 12 o clock,

and i was drinking this cheap wine,

like an old plant needed a water

on an empty farm,

on its own,

I was sweating

and there was a pain on my chest,

I took one big sip,

and put the glass down,

to concentrate on the pain,

and it grew bigger

the more I concentrated on it,

the bigger i got,

I started to sweat a lot,

then i did something,

i went on her profile,

for no reason or what so ever,

and saw a photo of her,

wearing a dark claret red dress

and dark red lipstick,

it was one of her favorite colour,

she lost weight

i thought,

I looked at the photo

for 5 minutes or so,

then felt sick,

I wanted to focus on the pain again,

but it wasn’t there

what a bitch..

© 2013 Ardic Agus

Drink

The gods only see

the one who aches,

and the gods haven’t seen me yet,

nor offered me any chances

but i ache and wait

drink and smoke,

sleep and die,

wake up the next morning,

and wait till something happens

and there is nothing happens here,

sometimes you receive a call

from one of your friends,

saying “why don’t you come over, we are drinking”

you say ok

then when you are there,

you drink the drink you brought with you,

and they’ll be like,

my god, you drink a lot!

© 2013 Ardic Agus