Symphony no9

A life based on mistakes 

And little note taking, a life based on observations that leads to questioning 

More divine than socrates or plato or any other mind who lived with no distraction, with less things going on 

And i 

Live in here where too much is going on but without a soul 

Or a true style 

And no questioning, 

And men do not think anymore 

And woman cares only of herself 

Which makes a man a dog or a monster 

I live under the shadow of the old masters 

My face is illuminated by them and im walking backwards into tomorrow 

With so much pointless ballshit in my mind 

Plus you


Empty one

My heart was furious
And my mouth never stopped
It said nothing but moved a lot
And the listener was shocked
There was no meaning but intensity
Of my on suffering while being very much alive, while still dreaming
Without a meaning
And she was observing
Speaking a little but telling me to speak.
And i spoke nothing but love
For her eyes
Her mouth
And the memories
Which is older than half of my age today
A seeker of wisdom is a fool
Because as the masters said
Ignorance is blissful

Ardic agus

Dying mortal

Men never learns,
Men experience but does not learn
Men dies and dies and dies
And borns again but do not LEARN
And dies for once more
For his own selfishness
And his ignorance comes out from his mouth
Stinking like a dead body of his
And goes mad
Each day each moment
Each breath
For loves sake
And carries on loving
But men is weak
And his weakness is what an artist is…

Ardic agus

blue- grey

when i left alone

i am not lonely,

i have a great sadness that comes deep down from my heart

and everything

and everyone is there,

and there is no escape

it is on my chest

it is in my throat

in my mouth

it is the truth

of my

heart and my brain

and it burns my skin,

heaven waits

but i am still alive.


She had curtains in her eyes
Never let you see her soul
But I,
Transparent and see through
Stepped on her soul And left a mark

There the darkness was darker than anything
Therefor the light there was lighter than The angels And divine
Never hurt my eyes,
She let me see it

I saw her well being,
I saw her naked
Her personality,
Her character were there explaining itself to me,
And I just looked,

Then it didn’t matter
If she was right for me or not,
I loved her for what she was
And she was just someone else
That I knew better than
Anyone else

Oo words, that came from God
O, wisdom, that we seek is god
Tell her that I have gone and she followed,

Let it be known, I never stopped seeking
Let it be known, I never stopped thinking,
Therefor she too, of me

Let it be known, I’ve gone because I understood and moved on,
Let it be known she still wants to understand more of what has left behind

Let it be known, that her heart is just curious
Let it be known she is not capable of loving others.
I know.
Because our love dried up while giving too much to each other without thinking tomorrow, and our loneliness had left us,
Gone for good

Let it be known,
I will carry on,
She too
But thoughts can not be controlled and therefor we won’t really move on
And finally we will throw ourselves into hell by our hands,
I feel it

Ardic S AGUS


I found myself in a place no different than hell,
I found myself suddenly standing up on my feet 11 hours a day serving monsters in all age,
Has no brain or so little
They eat the earth, with no mercy
They eat me, my soul
And they thank me, and I see this while looking in their eyes
I can not sit, I can not run away nor shout or scream
My punishment will be over by serving them
Though I know the end day if I don’t cheat myself
It will end
And I will be sent to paradise,
Where I can do what I want
What I really love and hate doing
Don’t get me wrong though
Without hate love is nothing
I will be in a divine place
I will turn that place divine, and holy like it was 500 years ago,
I will eat and lick the fruits of that place
With my eyes mostly
And with my brain too
My hands will hold my tools more than it held my penis so far
I will be lifted a little
Closer to people I love
And respect
And they can see me better from that place and pull me towards them
And I will suffer
To be lifted up a little more
I will stretch my skin
And I will tense
My whole
So my soul can satisfy more
Mainly death
When she comes and gets me
My journey in this life started in heaven and now I am in hell
Trying to find my way back,
And my journey will start in hell when I’m dead, though
It won’t be a long journey
At least not longer than yours

Ardic agus 2014